Day 13
I slept 12 hours straight and woke up at 9am. I did not feel ready to go home. I am physically exhausted and my ankle is in
great pain. I could barely stand
today. Having cell phone reception now that I am back in civilization I
looked at my phone. I found it loaded
with messages from the entire summer and all the “crisis” that “needed” attending. For
the first time, I felt relieved to be here in this motel room to hide.
What do I have for food today? I have fruit tart, raisin bread, and
chocolate. I won’t complain, it’s
something for food. I had it with three
kinds of tea. I don’t have to hop
anywhere with one function leg in this 110 degree heat to get food to eat.
I took a nap in the afternoon. I crashed after returning phone calls. I woke up at 6:45pm. I finally felt much better. I didn’t cry today.
I prayed to Guan Yin Bodhisattva how I need more rest and
I am not well enough to handle all that is waiting for me back at home.
This day past fast, for one I was barely awake much to
begin with. I spent most of my time
sleeping. I drank tea all day, I can
feel the dehydration. I was somehow too
busy to bother to drink and too busy to bother to go pee yesterday.
I ran through possible ways of getting home from
here. One option is to leave the car
here and rent a car to get home and catch my flight to Kaui. A month later when I am back from Kaui I can
pick up my car.
I saw lots of Dharma Protectors surrounding me these past
24 hours, mainly because I was crying in distress. They kept an eye on me and accompanied me
because I was scared. Otherwise they’d
just go about their business.
At 10:20pm I took a shower and prickly cold acidic chi
came out of my pores as I showered. I
left all the lights on. It’s scary
without them by myself in this area here.
I kept the sutra near me because I felt scared tonight.
