Manga or Animated Series Book or the movies


I think I am classically traditional when it comes to stuff like this. I really like the feel of the pages and the black ink lines on the pages of manga over the animated series off crunchyroll.com. I just like it in my hands and to look at the manga style frames and images and lines. I like the manga fish eye perspectives too. I think I feel more of a connection with the author and the illustration artists. Been following Shamen King, Naruto, XXX Holic series. Even the print manga version posted online onemanga.com isn't as statisfying as the actual pages in my hands.

Melting Cake


It's my niece Ellie's birthday today. She likes pink so I decided to make her chocolate cake with pink frosting. I put the icing on too early while the cake was still steaming hot and the icing melted. It was a fun hot pink cake with fresh black berries and cherries. I also got her a giant stuffed unicorn as a gift.

Bullies and Push Overs on Christmas Day at the AMC Mercado 20


Woke up and opened up my presents this morning in the tradition of Christmas. It was fun and really liked the gifts I got this year. Never get tired of getting good beautiful quality gifts from others.

I went for a Christmas lunch at Berkeley Monastery, it too is a annual tradition. Afterward, we watched "It's A Wonderful Life". I think this is the first time I saw the film from beginning to end. I really missed some critical parts in the past. Like I never knew about the angel. I made Hawaiian popcorn and hot chocolate mocha and tea.

Then I rushed to AMC Mercado 20 to watch "Marley and Me" with Michael, Dustin and Shelley. I was first to arrive and got in to locate a good row of seats for us. For those who came late to the theater they were upset about not being able to get seats they like and got angry. Not only that called the staff to tell me I can't save seats for others. I have no idea why me since I wasn't the only doing that. He must of liked my seats. Well, then get here like I did a whole 40 minutes earlier and prior to that wait in line for 30 minutes in the cold to get tickets. It's a no brainer, it just requires dedication and patience,and plenty of time to spare. I just couldn't believe someone getting upset on Christmas day and over something so trivial. This person must of not had a good Christmas. Maybe he didn't get any good presents. That's just sad. Well, the scene he made really scared all the kids in the theater. So not in the spirit of Christmas. What did I do, held my seat with my dear life and refused to let anyone bigger than me bully me around and he was big by height and weight. Nor did I let a AMC hourly wage worker who tried to move me without proof of such rule as AMC theater policy. Geesh, this was quite the movie before the movie.

Marley and me was an awesome dog movie. I cried. It's so embarrassing. Well, plenty of people in the theater were crying. As if that wasn't enough,I cried all the way home and continued to cry some more at home. I missed my dog.

Made Belly Room for Two Christmas Dinners


I decided to locate a gift for Naji. I found black and yellow North Face flip flops, they were his favorite color, but a size too big. I bought them anyways because it's Christmas Eve, and I was in the midst of preparing Christmas dinner and I don't have the time to order the right size or go to another shop and look around. Oh well, I've put the gift receipt in incase he wants to exchange for the right shoe size.

Dinner is Chinese Hot Pot. I was on my feet all day preparing. Shelley's mother past away a few weeks ago and she still doesn't feel well enough to participate in events so I packed her a to go of he own personal hot pot to be delivered by my brother her husband. I did the whole hot pot event to cheer her up even though she didn't know that and couldn't make it, I sent her my good wishes via to go box.

The kids tore up the presents and played with them right away. It was chaotic for a brief 15 minutes of gift wrap destruction.

I rushed to Charity Focus Christmas Eve event and I was late, a whole two hours late. I couldn't help it, I was running a Christmas party and dinner at my place and I also cleaned up too. I was locked out out and I waited for a bit before I decided to give up. Luckily I did wait because eventually some opened the door for me and I made it inside. I was invited to help serve dinner and dessert. I always feel good about this, I really enjoy service and I really enjoy working with Guri, Pavi, and Viral. I am always feeling more at peace and happy and grateful during and after. The food was so good as usual. Although I was stuffed, I ate some more anyways. Well, it has become an annual Christmas Eve Wisdom Scroll thing for me here, especially when I am in the country. I really look forward to the wisdom scroll like a fortune in the fortune cookie. I save mine each year.

Four Birthday Cakes


I made 4 Birthday Cakes today because I know four people born on this day. It was all chocolate with a Cherry Chocolate glaze. One of the birthday girl was out of town and I knew that ahead of time but I made one for her anyways, so...... I ate her cake for her instead. It's the thought that counts right.

Tonight I went to Teance for a gathering, after the gathering Ali asked me to stay because he made his famous Persian Saffron rice with Eggplant lentil stew. He is a good cook and his food is delicious. It was already 10:30pm but I couldn't resist and stayed on his invitation. As we all sat at the tea bar for a delicious hot midnight snack, I had a feeling that we have been gathering like this before in the past and often at a bar over food and drink. It all felt very familiar. Some how this process of gathering,eating, drinking and chatting about this and that was enough support and bond. And that somehow it was healing enough without fixing each other's anything or advice cramming. It was interesting experience.

Gwhyneth Chen Salon Concert

Here is a clip of Gwhyneth Chen playing one of my favorite pieces by Chopin.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMiZtTZK56w
I had fun setting put for the reception after the salon concert. It was fun working with Sher and Cindy. Developing Virtue Girls School came and served the appetizers to everyone and also helped with decorating and setting up. They were all very sweet and great to work with. Teance served tea. I enjoy hanging out with my friends from Teance. Here is their site, check it out they have top quality tea. http://www.teance.com/

Bishop Swing and Charles Gibbs from United Religions Initiative came to the kitchen and greeted the staff. That was very nice of them. I felt the menu for the appetizers was a good one. I'll have to check in with others if they felt the same.

How does it feel to be 21 today

"How does it feel to be 21 today?" Well, I'm glad I'm not 21 today. I miss the amount of physical energy I had then but I really don't miss anything else about my twenties. It was hard, not young enough to be a kid and not experienced enough to know how to handle adult questions in life.

The rest of the day was a total roller coaster but ended up sweet with dinner with my dad. I enjoy just sitting around and listening to him talk in things that interests him and how he sees things. He told me I was too nice of a person who takes care of everyone and ends up broke and still smiling as if I won the jack pot. That I don't know how to take care of my own interests because I'm just too good to people. I guess I am my parent's child. I learned it from them. They are just this way too. I remember when I was little I would watch my parents loan money to friends and family who they know won't return it, but they give any ways.

Tap tap tap

I woke up so exhausted I barely had any voice. It actually made me sound good. I was wondering whether or not I could keep this new voice. I had breakfast and watched TV. I saw the Christmas in the Park parade on TV. I would have personally gone and stood in the cold if I knew it was happening. Maybe next year. I cheered as if I was there when my old high school marching band marched by. My mom said,"you are like still in high school" in a nice way. Then I switched to the ARTS channel and ballet was on and we watched it together. She then said to me softly,"remember you used to tap dance and your feet was tapping all the time, and that was troublesome for me" in a very nice and reminiscing way. I must have been loud then and not very good either. I must have given her headaches. Well, I think that was the first nice exchange we had in.... oh, ...well... I can't remember at all when the last time was. Did it ever existed? This is a good new start I'd say.

Then I zipped out and went shopping. I had done all my research in the past few weeks on where to buy what at best price etc... so shopping today was fun, easy and not stressful.

76 Bags of Cookies

I baked cookies for 6 hours yesterday and didn't go to bed till 2am this morning. I baked 76 bags worth of Orange Russian Tea cookies cut in star shape for Christmas gifts. I spent another few hours bagging them and decorated with red, green, and yellow raffia. It was fun to hand out Christmas cookies with cards. I can't believe how I managed to run out of cookies even though I made twice as many this year.

By the time I was done with all of this White Elephant party had started and I was late on top of that I didn't prepare anything for the potluck. I brought the ingredients but I was just too tired to cook it. I really enjoyed the part year after year. Especially what people chooses to steal from others and who ends up with what gifts. I think the process is more fun than the actual gift part.

"Is she breathing?"

I slept with my niece Ellie and she was having repeated nightmare or something and would scream every 45 minutes. I would wake up in fear wondering is she was choking or can't breathe etc... I couldn't sleep because I was freaking out for her. I don't think I'm cut out to be a parent. My heart's too frail for such things. In the morning I made waffles for everyone and it was quite a hit. They ate it all up and asked for 2nds and 3rds. Everyone went to play ball again and I stayed back and took a nap and catch up on the sleep I didn't have. Then we played more wii.

Slumber Party

I was so tired from all the cooking and fun that I actually slept for 12 hours straight yesterday. Today was my brother Mike's turn to host and he hosted a slumber party. In the afternoon we played baseball at a nearby ballpark, then we played wii. We watched movies on our bed and ate popcorn and cookies in bed. We tried to play Battleship at 11:30pm but we were all really tired and it was too late to start that game. Another day of fun filled family time. Pretty worn out, totally worth it.

Thanksgiving with Family


My sister Helen's house is hosting the first day of our Thanksgiving gathering. Our Thanksgiving is more like a 4 day family affair. I am doing the first meal of our many meals over this 4 day family event. Every one is taking turns hosting with their house or with their cooking, we are all taking turns. I started to cook yesterday and did three days of shopping before that. It's been years since I made Thanksgiving meal, I was nervous but I felt everything turned out generally well and I had fun preparing it. It's been years since I spent time working on a puzzle and so I spent the time after our meal with my awesome nephews and nieces working on it. I have to say the ocean aspect of the puzzle was very difficult to put together.

Charity Focus Thanksgiving

I love Charity Focus. I went to Charity Focus for their Thanksgiving event and was happy to be of service and help out with food. There is just something very healing about working with people who give you space to work and trust you. What's the word I'm looking for,..... absence of drama, that's it! It's working from a heart of gratitude in service for everyone including each other.

Sylus at one point told us a dream he had. He dreamed enemies were at his door, his parents handed him a weapon to defend himself and the family and then Rev. Heng Sure showed up and said the following,"there are two things you can't work out 1) taking a life, 2)bringing a life, everything else you can work out."

Here is their website, check them out.
http://www.charityfocus.org/new/

Martin Simpson


I met Martin Simpson back stage before the performance and heard him speak of his tour stories as he changed his strings. This is the first time encountering and I felt he had a very sweet, gentle, loving heart and someone who weathered a lot of hardship in his life. He was also very strong looking. If he wasn't such a great artist I would of thought he was a miner or builder someone who laid the foundation to things, or someone who would be in the front lines of pioneers who lead others in the unknown.

During sound check I realized he knew more than the sound man. I felt when he sang Jahova as the first song during sound check, it was a prayer he did before his performance. During the performance I was inspired by his arms and his ability to heal with his music. I really felt after this night, I should pick up guitar again.

Alec Stonesweet


I met Alec Stonesweet and his wife for the first time. They are very sweet and creative people. I really enjoy Alec's music. I especially enjoy how he seems to forget about his audience and as if it was just him and his guitar

Dreams as My Secretary

I dreamed I was exhausted. I woke up realizing I have been exhausted. Sometimes I don't register how tired I am and how stressed out I have been and it takes dreaming about it to remind me that I am. Silly huh! My dreams is like my secretary.

I watched the Presidential speech and was filled with hope. I am so glad I lived to see this day. For the past 8 years, wherever I traveled people expressed their hatred towards America. I was ashamed to have an American passport. I even thought hard about moving for good to another country if Obama did not win this election. Now I don't have to be ashamed of having an US passport. I was so happy I could cry but no tears came forth. I was so happy I could scream for joy but not sound came forth. I felt saved.

I have witnessed history in the making. Humanity took a step forward without blood shed, without a revolution or civil war. Humanity took a step forward by reason and logic and conscious choice. A new dawn is breaking. People have chosen to wake up instead of the continual silence and paralysis of sleep. People have chosen to heal instead of continue with destruction. THANK YOU ALL

Big Grin From Cheek to Cheek

Went to lunch with parents and nephews. At the end of lunch my dad disappears for quite some time. When he returned he had a grin on his face that stretched from cheek to cheek and two shakes in his hands. He looked like a kid who went to the candy store and bought candy. He looked young and happy. He looked like my dad.  He bought the shakes for his grandchildren.

Then I made cookies and sushi with my nephews. I enjoy spending time with them. I like to just hang out and play games, sports, bake, go to the ball park, watch movie and eat lots of junk food with them. I don't know how to ride a rip stick yet. I'll have to work on that.

Sinking

My eyes started to gaze downward slowly. I didn't even notice it was happening until he leaned over and extended his shoulder and arm to help prop me up. I was sinking and falling forward into sadness. He lend his strength and just that snapped me out of it.

1/2 Fish

I did my usual jog trail of 3 miles but ended up running a little over 1 mile. It has been about 8 years since I have been able to run. When I jog it's really more like a shuffle. I haven't had the ability in my back and right leg to run. It would require lifting of my right leg which I haven't had access to. I just have been throwing it or dragging it. It felt great to run after all these years. I'd consider this a miracle with the help of a lot of massage, therapy, stretch, continual exercise.

I soaked a pot of dried seaweed to cook. When I reached into the pot to pick out the pieces my body felt an automatic connection to the sea. It's as if I've gone hungry or dying of thirst and the first contact with water or food. May be people had a point when they called me Sandy 1/2 Fish.

Means to Survive

Hung out a bit with Naji today. His name means survive. I thought that was cool. I told him my name comes from Alexander and means strength. He's quite a history buff who is majoring in sociology or anthropology or both. His goal is to train for Golden Gloves in the next two years. Here is his clips on shadow boxing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KycGHK0IRa4

Some times

I went to visit someone going through rough times right now. I really didn't know what I could do to help her. I had many things in my mind in terms of ideas. But when I got there I realized some times the best thing you can do for someone going through traumatic rough times is... wash their dishes, clean their house, take out the trash, pour them a cup of tea, stock their fridge and be a good pleasant company. Don't tell that person what's wrong with them and how they need to fix it from my point of view. Some times, good company is all one needs to warm up the heart and the house that seems to be in the cold dark ages.

Cringe

Today I came across someone I used to work with and it all came back; the tensing of the body, the shortness of breath, the cringe in the stomach. It all came back in that flash and then I remember that today was October 4, 2008. I remembered it has been years since I worked at that job. I remembered I no longer work with this person who would call me whenever to yell at me and tell me how stupid I was and blame me for everything. I remembered I am not a punching bag or a trash can for this person any more. I remembered that was why I stopped working at that job. And when I remembered all of this,... I remembered I was happy and my body stopped tensing up. I could breath again.

The Morning Fall

Getting up from meditation, I heard a pop and then fell forward this morning. I hung onto my left foot and hopped nothing broke. I prayed and hoped it was so because I don't have insurance and I don't have money to see any doctors. I couldn't feel a part of my foot. About 8 hours later my entire body started to twitch and spasm. I was exhausted and everything was hurting. Even my back was out of alignment from the fall. I had to lay and rest at 3pm and called it a very long day.

Huston Smith






Went to an event where Huston Smith spoke along with Henry Rosemont, and Martin Verhoeven. Huston is quite an amazing person and has a great sense of humor.

Better Than Ever at 88


I was able to go to the sold out show at Freight and Salvage as part of the Old Time Music Convention week featuring Benton Flippen, Foghorn Duo, Rayna Gellert and Partick.

The music was superb. I smiled the whole night. The energy in which the performers performed tonight were ..... well, created a space of safe haven somehow and full of bright strong sunshine energy.

Benton made his fiddle turn to water, flexible, the tree was gone. He is 88 years old this year. How his career started; He first bought a guitar but felt it hurt his hand to play. Then he went and traded it for a gun and he didn't like that either. Then he traded it for a fiddle, he still has his fiddle today. He is a self taught musician. He is legendary in Old Time Music.

On the stage tonight, it was full of respect, honor, and reverence for Benton. Tonight, it was as if I went back in time to a different era, a different country, were civilized, basic human beauty of interaction were the norm and the norm was everything was in balance, in harmony with the nature around us and within us. I was taken to a place, a time where people had time for each other and each person mattered and integrity was honored. This brought a peace to my mind.

On stage with Benten was Paul Brown, Frank Bode, Paul Hostetter, and Ed.
www.musicmaker.org/artists/index.php?bandid=10
www.brownpaul.net

Foghorn Duo just arrived from touring in Ireland. Sammy and Caleb were full of raw yet mastered energy through their strings. I loved every bit of it. www.foghornstringband.com

Rayna and Patrick had a very sweet sound. They are both children of famous Old Time musicians. This was their first time collaborating together. First time they performed together, both are Sagittarians. www.rayna.utopiandesign.com

Homeless Lifestyle

I passed by a homeless man who was packing up his stuff off a drive way 9:30 in the morning. It was not his driveway.  He just decided to park himself there as a residence.  I first was afraid to talk to him or even look at him but I was curious. I thought to myself, what would Viral Mehta do? He would walk up to the guy and talk to him like a human being. So I scrambled up some courage and walked up to him and introduced myself. I wanted to know how he became homeless, what happened, and what keeps him in this lifestyle.

John is a baby boomer who sang the song of victimhood. He had problems with his parents, he did not feel his parents loved him and according to him they were ashamed of him. For what reasons, he can't seem to point out at all. He felt his mother did not financially support him because he had to pay for his own college. But they paid for everything else in his life and let him live with them until 7 years ago. That's a long time because the guy is like in his 50's.

He loves backpacking alone because he can't seem to get along with anyone long enough to enjoy their company. He was a commercial photographer and went to art school. He met his wife there and they were married when he was 24 years old, for a very brief period. Today, he still has the ring on his finger. He fell from a mountain because he was wreckless and didn't get full trained or educated on rock climbing or ice climbing. He is on heavy medication. He's at war with the Mayor for not taking better care of him. He prefers to sleep on the street then to rent a room because he said he needs to rent money for his lifestyle. He has money, because all his gears were top notch. The guy evens has a laptop. He claims 900 dollars of governmental support is not enough to have his lifestyle so he cannot rent a room, nor does he want to move into support housing.

I stood in the cold for 45 minutes talking to John. For the first 35 minutes John's body shook in fear, anxiety, and nervousness.

Cross Overs

Dream

I am sleeping in a room and the door opens and I see a female vampire standing at the door. This vampire became a vampire as a result of emotional pains. She wants everyone to be like her so she would no longer be an outcast. If everyone becomes an outcast then that would be the norm and she would be normal. I quickly stood up and the light was behind her and she casted a shadow. I put my palms together and recited Shakyamuni Buddha's name and this created a shield that blocked her blast. Then I did something else and I blasted her to buy me some time to escape.

I run to another room and everyone there was asleep. I hid in the closet and a scream from another room woke everyone up and they all jumped out of bed to attend to it. I jump out of the window and ran.

I ran through an outdoor restaurant and I saw a girl shifting shape into a dog and then a girl, back and forth. People were all laughing at her not knowing what to do or what was going on. She was traumatized. I picked her up and carried her into the kitchen and placed her into a sink and ran the warm water to sooth and calm her. The physical experience of the state she was in was painful like an episode of seizure.

I then jumped onto a bus full of people and I spotted someone across from me whom I assumed had Native American spiritual background and decided to ask him,"have you seen vampires?" He leans back at me and tells me,"get off here. " I got off and I followed him into a Taoist temple where he lined up to light an incense and pay homage to an earth god. It occurred to me that the two have cross overs and may be the same with cultural differences and icons. He holds up an incense and tells me the ingredients for a healing patch from a vampire bite, a bite of emotional injury that destroys the mind, and tells me what to recite as I make it. I thought in my mind this is too much detail and I need to write it down, all of it. Then he turns to me and leans forward and whispers into my ears and say, "You know, Earth Store Bodhisattva Sutra does pretty well too!"

California is Beautiful


Day 8
Road trip down south was great. Made many scenic stops along the way. This was a pee stop al'natural, what a view to go in.

Pulled over to check out the Elks at the Meadow in Prairie Creek State Park.

Pulled over on exit #768 on Klamath Breach Road to go to high bluff for a picnic ocean view.

Then exit #765 Newton B Scenic Parkway to get out through the north.

Then we took Ferndale and went through the historical downtown and saw some nice architecture, it was a drive by to check out old Colorful well maintained Victorian Houses. We made it onto the Lost Coast road to check out what that was about. We weren't impressed or maybe we are just spoiled with natural beauty. All that work of driving in windy road to get on Ferndale Petrolia Road passing lots of barns and hills. It really felt like a different state through there.

Then we pulled out onto Mattol Road into Humboldt Redwood State Park through to Rockefeller Forest. By the time we got there it was too dark. The very tall trees were intimidating. It was too much for all of us girls and we got out of there as soon as we could. Didn't get off the road to our destination till 11:30pm. Much later than we would of liked but all the stops we made were worth it and fun.

Kentucky Falls, a Must

Day 7
Today I organized and cooked tomorrow's road trip home lunch box. Then I along with everyone else who wanted to hike to Kentucky Falls left for the fun. 


I really love the trails to Kentucky Falls. It find it very pristine. The trails are well padded from trees. Everything is luscious and green. Plenty of beautiful wild flowers to discover. I feel as if elves and unicorn would be popping out here or there when I hike the trail. It's just so beautiful. 
Then there is the Kentucky Falls to get wet in. It's cold, very cold, but feels very healing. I hate to miss a hike and the water when I am in Turtle Mountain. One of the girls slipped and twisted her ankle. Glad I hiked last and was the sweeper to help her out. Glad I packed in bandage tape for stuff like this.








Licking Sweets

Day 6
There was a request for rice krispy treats so we made it for lunch. It was to be lead by Laura but she was no where to be found.  It turns out she needed a nap.  Well, the best part about making sweets is licking it off your hands or the spatula as part of the clean up. No double dipping. 















After lunch a hike to Turtle Mountain. It was said that when Navtive Americans were pushed to move westward their Great Turtle King Spirit went as far west as possible and settled here. This is the reason this mountain is called Turtle Mountain, named after the Great Turtle King Spirit. 







In the afternoon we played in the open meadow. Here is David Williams flipping.


Andrew flipping over the stick.


Mike hanging out on a tree.












Silver got a bath.

Silver gets a tick check by Henry.

Bloody Knee

Day 5

I slipped and fell this morning while walking downhill. I landed on my left knee. I had a terrible cut into my knee by a flat rock. It was painful. I landed on my knee because I had both my hands in my pocket. I sat for awhile in pain and bleeding and clenched until words can come out of my mouth. After breakfast I cleaned myself up with the first aide kit. I was bloody and it was painful. Since I was in pain and bleeding, I decided it was official, I was to not go to the beach or roll down the sand dunes.

Valerie and Izzie, mother daughter team also in matching outfits helping to prepare lunch.

This is the Laura and Elain Tan sister duo cooking Pad Thai for 70 for lunch on a giant outdoor wok.


I think one of the funnest part of this outing is to ride on the open truck up and down the mountain. You do have to hang on yourself and hang on to others to keep them from falling off.

I really wanted to cash in on the meditation opportunities here. I decided after sitting in the meditation hall after lunch that I would go and sit in pad outside my tent. I found it to be very quiet and nice except for three mosquito that made it into the tent. In order to mosquito proof myself I covered myself well and tucked my fingers into my sleeves. This defense against mosquito attacks worked. However because I was so tired I found myself dozing off and then waking up. I like flowers like this on the mountain trail. I feel like Thumper should be jumping out any time.

Later at night when it was lights out time one of the younger girls group tent created quite a bit of noise. It was 11:35pm and they were screaming and wondering about on the grounds. This was exactly the third day of the retreat date. Historically the third day is when people get giddy, and start to feel like they are walking on bubbles. The girls were so loud, Loc had to physically walk over to the girl's side to tell us to tell them to shut up. I told him he should go ahead and do that himself. He did and they did.

All that commotion was over a wet spot in the tent and someone called out, "pee". This wet spot was either from dew collection in the tent or someone spilled something like instant noodle soup. Well, instead of cleaning it up or assuming it is something other than pee, it was more sensational to say it was pee. Well the side that it was on was on Ann's side and she was not willing to clean it up or sleep on that end. I went into the tent and sniffed the wet spot. I explained how I was on the grounds meditating and named those who came into the grounds during the day and if anyone said it was pee then it would have been one of those people who shouldn't have been in the tent grounds during that time to begin with. At that point no one was willing to continue the pee sensation story. Nor were they willing to confess to not eating lunch with everyone at the 1/2 Can and having instant noodle soup delivered to their tent. Well, the wet spot was cleaned dry. Ann got a new sleeping pad to sleep on. She refused to sleep on her spot and since no one was going to tell the truth, I had everyone switch spots. The 12 person tent was more than big enough for 4 young teeny girls and one eleven year old girl to all pick out new sleeping arrangements.

When I got out of their tent it was already 12:35am. Everyone was kept awake by them. Izzie who is 8 could no longer go to sleep and was in distress. So I chatted with her and shined my LED light onto her eyes, all she could do was close them. That was a good start I thought. It helps to go to sleep by closing your eyes. I told her that if she doesn't go to sleep then Silver can't either because that is his job to check everyone after they have gone to sleep. And if he can't finish his job then he can't rest and he plays all day with us and he is old so to be kind to him and to help him rest and live longer we should all fall asleep as soon as possible so Silver can clock out for the night and get lots of rest to play with us the next day.

Special Apple Pie Spice, Laughter

Day 4
I woke up at 5:35am and made tea. There was enough light to see that I didn't need to use any additional light to see. I made quite a bit of noise because I wasn't awake enough to be coordinated. I learned that my titanium cup really hold heat well. It took me a long time to wait for it to cool. I decided that I need to speed up the process by walking it in the cold to cool it off so that I wouldn't miss the morning mediation. When I sat I felt all this gas that wanted to burp up. I told them they need to dissolve and not disturb anyone else who is trying to meditate. Guess, what, it worked.

I did have breakfast and checked out what was available for lunch. I knew Loc and Stacy needed to head into Eugene today and they would need lunch. Depending on what was on the menu, they could pick from lunch already prepared or buy something on the road or I could fix something together for them. I wanted to do something special but had to create it on the spot. They really worked hard and were the last ones to eat lunch on Sunday and lunch was pretty much all gone when they got to eat. Plus with their tight schedule the last thing I think they should worry about is search for lunch.

This lunch box experience was no ordinary one. I realized the act of giving is a luxury. It takes a rich heart to give. How much I am able to give in joy with my heart and in sincerity without conditions is how much space I create in my heart to receive nurture and happiness. How wonderful!

So I started to roll spring rolls while all the Vietnamese moms looked with disapproval. My version was not the traditional way they said. I know that. But this was what I could do on the spur of the moment. For some reason Dung did a hide and seek on me with whatever I brought out to make their lunch box with. I think it was because she was trying to be helpful and set the space up for lunch preparation. So I decided to wait until they were all gone and I was the only one in the kitchen to cook slowly. By the time I was done with their lunch it was too late to hike up the steep hill and make it in time for morning activities. I decided to climb up a ladder and pick Granny Smith apples for Apple Pie. I decided that I could contribute dessert to lunch.

Apple pie is easy to make but it's just time consuming with the apple part on peeling and cutting, especially if you have to pick the apples off the tree yourself. Fortunately, lots of people came to my aid, lots of kids, got into making the pie with me. I wouldn't have been able to bake it in time for lunch if not been for them. It was fun to make it together. I think that is what is fun about food, cooking, doing it together adding the special spice of laughter. Apple pie was not ready in time for Loc and Stacy's lunch box, Loc told Stacy he would roll into McDonald's to buy her apple pie through the drive through. That was sweet of him.


for lunch a Vietnamese noodle soup called Bun Reu and fresh berries from berry bush all over the place and bears and deer do love these berries.

After lunch was creek time. It was fun to walk on the creek. Pretty slimy, the trick is to get your footing in between rocks and go for the small ones and not the big ones. Most people go for the big ones and they would slip and fall. It was a sure dunk in the water for those who decided to do that. For a lot of people, this was their first time outdoors.

.....and if you didn't get wet from slipping then your friends may help you cool off instead, from left to right David and Andrew

We sat on a big rock on the creek and shared embarrassing stories of ourselves.

I told the group the time when I was potty training and had an accident while playing up on the roof top with neighbor's kids. I ran down to the first floor and found my dad and he cleaned me up really well. He didn't yell at me or shame me in any way and sent me off on playing some more before dinner. My dad is cool this way.

I like being in water, near water. Creeks and rivers were regular family trips we would take in Taiwan when I was little. It usually involved BBQ too. I remember when I was a toddler, I would have a life savor on me and a bucket to play with while I sat on the river rocks with running water. Shallow enough and soft enough current that I wouldn't be swept way and if for some reason I did, there was the life savor that I had around me to keep me afloat. I loved being under the hot sun and in the water.

After the creek excursion, we stood recited and prayed for any living beings we may have harmed by walking in the creek and creating disturbances in their environment.

When we made it back to 1/2 can, David Williams and Sher showed up. Loc and I were betting on him not showing up again for the 4th straight year. Every year he says he is coming and then doesn't. Last year he got as close as Shasta and then turned around and went home. So I was totally surprised when he showed up. He had just flew in from Canada and he picked up Sher at 3am. They drove the whole time. Sher doesn't know stick shift so David drove the whole way. At one point he had Sher drive and he kept his hands on the shift and his eyes closed while she petaled. They were aiming to arrive for lunch. But had to pull over to sleep and lost time that way. He said he shared his entire life story with her on the ride over. After feeding them pie and noodles we set up tent with them because they were exhausted.

I decided I needed a nap in order to stay awake for the movie at night, "Spiderwick Chronicles". Although I've seen it, it's fun to watch it with everyone especially camping. I like watching movies on the projector screen. It reminds me of when I was little, my dad owned a video camera and had the reel projectors. He would project movies he made of us or any event on the wall. It was fun.

Fresh Soy Milk by Hand

Day 3
The smell of dew drops and wet mountain is refreshing. There is no sound of modern technology. I got up for the morning meditation at 6am. I sat feeling together and falling apart, strong but relaxed. My brains felt like they are being supported by gentle, nurturing, and careful hands. It felt safely suspended and massaged all in the same time. I felt safe and grateful. The morning hour long meditation felt really short this time.

I decided to head down the steep hill for breakfast even though I could have gone without it. When I got there I found fresh porridge and fresh soy milk. I love fresh soy milk. It's the only kind that doesn't give me digestive trouble. So awesome to have moms around, they can make fresh soy milk without any machine or gadgets. This is Ayo A.K.A. "Chocolate Lady" because she works at a chocolate factory and where ever she goes she brings chocolate to share with everyone.

Our morning gathering started with sharing of gratitude. Laura thanked me for tucking her in last night. I was grateful for the opportunity to be here and that everyone arrived safely. Then Rev. Heng Sure taught all of us our new Oregon Camp song sung to the tune of Country Road. It was great.

Lacey led Yoga in the morning. It was nice to stretch and move the body in Yoga. It has been 10 years since I last did any yoga, so out of shape. In previous years Loc taught Tai Chi and Shaolin. I wonder who will teach what next year, pilates?

For lunch we all walked down to 1/2 Can chanting and in single file. The kitchen wasn't ready it was 30 minutes behind schedule. Iron Chef Yong arrived last night and I knew I didn't have to cook at all when she's around. I love her food. Anything she makes, is good. From the left to right is Yong, Janny, Kuo Juan.

Afternoon I took a nap in my tent. It was much needed. I had a headache from fatigue, dehydration, heat. The rest and cooling tea helped. I think if I hadn't stopped the process it may have progressed to a heat stroke. That would have been bad. It would be like getting poison oak or ivy and spending your whole camping trip in pain and sitting out on everything. That would have bummed me out.

Here is my sky view from my tent. I used to just lay on my front lawn grass and watch the sky move after school for hours. I loved watching the sky in the day and night.


Today Jackson, Billy, and his dad decided it was safe to camp and they can move out of their truck. So they pitched tent for the first time and slept outdoors for the first time. That was courageous of them to come to the outdoors and sleep in a tent.

I went to dinner even though I wasn't hungry. Afterwards I decided I would skip dinner for the rest of the week. I don't need it and I need more time to rest, do laundry and just chill by myself for an hour. I always gain a lot of weight here. I use so much energy and don't rest enough. It must be the food here is ten times more nutritious or something. It must be the secrete power nutrient of good air.