Being so physically ill each day has forced me to
simplify, not multi task. It has forced
me to take much needed rest and solitude.
I have had a lot of space to reflect and think, I feel quite sober and
clear actually. I feel if I take the
matter into my own hands and keep myself healthy then the strange very embedded
habits of growing resentment and grudges for others not taking good care of me
does not have a place to root itself in and feed off of. I would have been able to spot trouble,
danger and stay away. And if I choose to
get involved then it is a very clear conscious choice of intervention with strength and
effectiveness.
