While driving on the way to the gas station during
sunset, flashes of possible life proposals flashed before me as if they were
attractive options. I felt physically
attacked on my immune system. I felt
attacks on my chest. All these
temptations were lies encouraging self destruction, suicide, massive tragic
accidents. I yelled out, “Stop! I don’t want to hurt myself or be hurt or
die. I love my life! I have a lot to look forward to. Go Away!
Get Out!” and just like that the
hells of screams of my mind in my body ceased.
Wow! Just in this moment, all of
it, all the waves, tsunamis leading pushing to this moment was all worth
it. It was all worth it. I learned I can do it. I did it.
What a mile stone! It’s
graduation.
Exhausted, I sat behind the service table on the loft of
Teance and leaned on the wall for support.
It’s a good thing I had Cheeseboard tomato olive capers bread
earlier, I might of just passed out.
